the long road home.

if i took a bus from school, i would be practically wasting money, because i would always alight at the second stop. yet, being the lazy bum, i took bus rides as if they were free. in and out. in and out. but as i became more emotional each day, i've been walking home ever since. that long straight path. seemingly, it leads to nowhere. the sky just turns gloomier and gloomier. i walk on and on, stopping occasionally for cars to turn in.

i stare ahead, clutching my file tightly in my hand. there was no one beside me, holding my hand or smiling at me. i see big houses lit up by great orange lights. i would look in and see families watching the telly, or having dinner. they would all sit around a great big table, laughing and laughing. soon my footsteps quicken, and i walk on.

i look at the trees too, and although they just look dead, i knew they had a life in them. each and every one. they seemed like guardian angels, shadowing me from the sun, shadowing me from the evil world. moments later, my footsteps would cease. i had reached 'home'.

on somenights, justina or some of the soccerettes would walk this long way home with me, and i know, i'm not alone.

when will the day come for you to walk me home?

Bad girls. haha.

MELINDA AND JUSTINA FORCED ME to change my blogskin! haha. they complained that the font was too small, and they demanded a tagboard. LOL. what is this man. but i think this skin is rather nice? besides, i like green. and sorry huiling i know this was your ex-skin HAHA.
i need to get SLOMAN, but its damn ex la. and it kinda looks like the type of book i would never read, it scares me. but BONG BONG wants it. UGH.
a date with yinghan tmr! haha. havent seen my darling in such a long time la. we're gonna rock town tmr. wait for me! :)
AND a study date with ESTHER tmr morning. we dont have lessons, but she wants to see her EC, haha so yeah. we're taking nanyang too.
I CANT WATCH SINGAPORE IDOL! :(
my family's hogging the telly. CHANNEL 8 is the only channel they'll ever tune into. CHEENA PEOPLE! haha.
and mom's gonna buy back CORN again! haha. you know, corn in a cup? it's so good, it's bad.

i know i've put up this pic before, but i cant help it. it's really beautiful.

XMEN. the last stand.

XMEN3 rocked. haha. i wanna watch it again! LOL. and mr mao treated us to nachos and drinks. THREE CHEERS! :) and after the credits started rolling, i noticed two nanyang people walking past me. was shocked momentarily before i started laughing. haha. jack yeo and ******. shant disclose her name. haha. but you know who you are! :) catching a movie together? didnt expect us to be there ha!

feeling feverish. gotta rush through energetics tutorial for banana's lesson tmr! horror horror horror. i'm starting to find econs a bore, because of that helmet haired lady. her voice just drones on and on. and i just stone. oh great! i failed my SEA hist tests. and they're like what? 25% of my promotion criteria?

i cant stand it. XMEN3. XMEN3. damn nice. at certain crucial parts of the movie, sheri and i were laughing away. haha. and mr mao kept offering his coke to us. i have no idea why, but no one was thirsty.

huijeen is a shopaholic! no doubt.

loga likes the fire floss bun from breadtalk.

actually, i like it too.

:))

i woke up late. and reached school late.
looked into the AVA room.
drats! the lecture has started!
feeling helpless, i ran to the library.
here i am now.
so bored, i changed my blogskin.
tried to call sheri.
tried to do some work.
tried to do something useful.
BAH!
yikes. i even plucked up courage to borrow the phone from the librarian. i must have been nuts.
then she shocked me by talking to me, and even smiling to me!
omg. am i seeing things?
no i am not kidding. the great white shark smiled at me!
i knew i was a sweet young thing. LOL.

i got this from shiqin's blog.

http://gssq.entori.net/writings/girl.htm

the author has undoubtedly put in alot of efforts to observe how girls behave, cos the points that he has raised are largely true. go read it girls. i'm sure you will be guilty after reading it haha. and guys, you can go read it too. but you'll end up laughing all the way, cos some guy has finally voiced out what you wanted to say for years.

go figure.

our GPP got rejected again. for like, the fourth time. it's frustrating, esp having to edit it over and over again. worse still, we spelled our CT's name wrongly. ownage.

econs lecture.
a total bore.

i came late, naturally. but amalina was later than me. haha! she sat down beside me and started taking out her big pink jacket. sweet. then, anabel started blowing her nose REALLY LOUDLY, and everyone turned to look. that was the high point of the lecture. the only one, in fact. actually, the lecture doesnt coordinate with the lecture notes. they jump all over the place, and only tells us not to copy some points AFTER we copy it. oh today was the best. i dont geddit at all! i was busy staring at the pink lecturer, analysing her dress sense. hmm. i think she wore some high waisted pants today. either that or she has a short body. that must be it.

WHEE! i started to smile after one and a half hours, cos that's when the lecture ended. off we trooped to srg mac. big breakfast rocked my tummy. haha. it's like, we only get to eat macdonalds breakfasts on weekends, cos we cant possibly eat them on weekday mornings(unless we pon school haha) but now, we can! yippee. cos it's the HOLS! we are highly likely to take srg mac by storm this june.

then they wanted to do their GPP, whilst i wanted to rot, so we headed over to XUEWEI's house. her home's beautiful. and she has loads of arowanas or fishes basically. her room's neat man. unlike mine, which is a pig sty disguised as a bedroom. hee.

we basically had loads of laughs, cos jonah and loga were flirting away like nobody's business. loga says: jonah, cheryl will pull your pants down.
me: no i wont.
loga: if she doesnt i will.

omigosh. sheri and i were stunned. btw, jonah is short for jonathan. dont get the wrong ideas.
then, we got bored, and started watching HAPPY TREE FRIENDS. gross but hilarious. haha. jonah then recommended some iraqi beheading videos. i refused to watch, but judging from the expressions and muffled screams of the gang, i knew i made the right choice. not to watch, that is. well, you can go search yahoo for the videos, but dont say i didnt warn you haha. jonah was enjoying the beheading shows though. that idiot. haha.

i read memoirs of a geisha for awhile, got sleepy, then slept in xuewei's comfy bed! haha. then i awoke to wierd sounds. apparently, they were looking at some RJ video that filmed a teacher insulting the student. i realise the teachers here at nanyang arent that bad after all.

:)

watched poisedon. it got my heart racing. but, i had to leave halfway. aww.
oh btw, xuewei makes good maggi mee.

i still remember.

our GGP's almost done. and our group is NY001. the very lucky first project work group of nanyang. WHOA. haha. dont belittle us. although we only have three members, we call ourselves THE POWERPUFF GIRLS! (okay, carol and yanyi went completely nuts and wrote that as our grp name in the GPP)

the teacher VS student football match was cancelled la. BAH! i was looking forward to watching sequeira and mao mao play. LOL. and mr bong too. hilarious. btw, i support the teachers! :)

i saw similarities in justina and keli today.
they both have big faces.


hahaha!

i dont wanna run away;
but i cant take it,
i dont understand.
if i'm not made for you,
then why does my heart tell me that i am?

ARGH.

it rained. but it did not dampen our spirits one bit. no way. it started out fine, with our very first goal(scored by jinyu darling), until halftime. then this fat woman came and told us if we put one foot into the field, girl soccer would be banned forever. whoa. in the first place, this CCA didnt even exist! well, then she just sort of faded away. and we, extremely annoyed by the liondance troop, shifted away.
there it was. heart to heart talk time. the seniors and juniors. well, several misunderstandings were cleared and everyone just laughed at kiyoko getting 'tau-poked'. like that mattered. haha. we posed alot too, for the camera. haha. jumping shots; crazy shots; you name it. wanqi i love you for coming :)

i cant believe it.
elliot's out.
and i cried.

that post below was totally random i know.
i was using the com when sheri shooed me away.
blah. in a matter of seconds, i just typed whatever came to my mind.

as some people would have already known, i lost my phone. AGAIN. but this time, it was stolen la. while i was at TPY interchange(vacade that place people!) and in a matter of less than 24 hours, the bloody thief used IDD on my phone and made 600 bucks worth of calls to Vietnam.

whoa.

yeah i know. i was like WHOA too when i found out.
who makes calls to vietnam anyway?

i have no clue.

so dont msg or call me for this period. until i get a new phone. yepp. anyhows i take forever replying messages (as those who know me well should know) so it doesnt really make a difference does it? haha.

we hopped round to jerold's house after school on friday; for the history proj. haha, but loga and sheri wanted to come, so yeah, they were there too. we has a great time! i was laughing all the while. just ask sheri. jerold and jonathan are just hilarious. we did a lil undercover thing abt ahem too, and jerold was totally turned off by ahem. LOL. and jonathan said he would consider her as his *** slave. sheesh. men.

oh, and i realised that sheri and i cant play basketball for nuts.

testing testing 1 2 3
haha.

volleyball is exciting. right angelia? haha.
and yes, the AJ uniform really looks factory-workerish.

and HUILING!
i didnt forget you la! you're like the person who has literally been with me for a year.
it's just that you dont really have a nickname, you're just the good ol ling.
:) your blog looks awesome, btw.

SPA just trips me out.
and guess what?
i tripped.

and SHERI, okay i acknowlege that you are known as DUUCKIE.
happy? haha.

i'm losing the mood to blog. dont mind me.

VESAK DAY was a well-spent day resting at home.
SATURDAY became a day to jump and hop around.
I HAVE RECOVERED!
yippee. apologies to both 0601 then and now for not able to make it to the class outings. the MARCHE one and the SENTOSA one. hope they had fun.

i was blown away on thursday. it came as a shock. and left as a regret.

it hurts to know that he's leaving school. it hurts to say that it is official. dreams are blown to smittereens; laughters cease to exist. all the best my friend, do take care and we'll never forget you here at nanyang.

if i could only choose to love one thing, that would be my printer.
WHY?
cos it has dutifully printed countless lectures and tutorials for me, and i'd never heard a single word of complaint.
it really is amazing.
and guess what?
i just shoved a whole stack of A4 paper down its throat.
and clicked the PRINT button.
out came 23 pages of chem energetics notes.

SOME APPLAUSE PLEASE.

this whole system of printing our own tutorials and lectures is driving me bonkers. okay, call me lazy, but i long for the days where teachers fed us the notes. i didnt even have to staple the sheets myself! (cos my partner would also do so haha) ignore me, i'm just feeling grumpy.

well, we lost again, to the defending champions. YAY sheri, loga and izaac came down to support (thanks guys) and loga had to come over and say i ponned school. and melinda, stop looking over at the street soccer court. LOL. eye-candying.

and sylvia STOP LAUGHING at my hair! i will get you for this one day. i know it's a 3 dollar hair cut but stop telling me that! haha. like i dont already know. and melinda, you laughed too! bad girls.

oh ya. sheri loga and izaac laughed too.
huiyen laughed too.

HAIR GROWS.
I WILL GROW MY HAIR BACK! (muahaha)

you just wait. haha.


(yes, that is mr lawrence. LOL!)

my head is throbbing.
BUT I WANNA PLAY IN THE MATCH!
*howls*

SNEEZE!

tuesday was terrible. i couldnt stop sneezing. mucus just flowed on and on. i wonder just how many packs of tissue i have used. yes, i'm down with a flu. thought i'd be fine. that was, until i got home and realised that i was down with a fever as well. goodness. immediately i thought of the match today. and the chem retest. and that keli accidentally brought my chem test paper home. it was just a bad, bad day.

popped some pills, went to bed.
and here i am.

if i feel better, i shall go back to school later at three for the match.
if i dont feel better, i will STILL go back to school later, to support the girls.

i am down, but not out.
i am sick, but not dead.

recently i've been thinking about school, about jc life to be exact. is this really what i wanted? mugging and slogging, huffing and puffing, staying up late to rush work or mug after a tiring session of soccer practice, on and on. jc life is really dead. thank goodness for my classmates, my friends(sheri, loga, izaac) and the soccerettes.

anabel asked me in the canteen on tuesday: " what makes you happy?"
i looked at her, met her gaze, and i knew, she was extremely unhappy.
i was, too, but i didnt say so.

i said: " i was much happier in secondary school."
she nodded her head furiously, and i knew she really felt so.
we both felt so.

it really is different.
waking up every morning is a struggle. and when i reach the tall grey gate, all i see are dragonboaters doing pull-ups, brown-colored figures everywhere, people mugging, people laughing, people stoning. i walk to the parade grounds alone, in search of my friends. at the end of lessons, i walk home alone, plugged in to my ipod, thinking about the day.

in the past, i couldnt wait to get to school. i was always the first few to arrive, and we would all sit in a circle on the parade square, crapping or mugging together.



lessons were never a bore, because we would always be secretly writing messages, or passing sweets around(remember the lime mentos?) or laughing at the teacher. i hardly slept in class, and everyone would look forward to recess time 10.50 am.



i would always be the one going down to eat, and smuggling food up to the classroom. i would always be the one with pockets stuffed with lo mai kai, or sandwiches or milo packets. before i stepped out of the door, i knew someone would always shout: " eh cheryl help me buy ham and cheese sandwich!"

after school, we always knew where to go, the first stop would be the bubble tea shop, then the coffee shop, then either shopping malls or emma's house.

we were a bunch of youthful and lively teens, and we lived life to the fullest. i remember my nickname in sec 3 was JIPOOSAI, given by izaac. lol. then in sec 4, it became DAM, or DAMN. haha. and angelia's sec 3 nickname was NEHNEHPOK and in sec 4 it became MAMA. wenlin was simply known as HAM, huiqi known as EMMA, qingloon known as MUSH(because his hair resembled a mushroom), hanyong known as BEAR(cos he looked like a bear. LOL!), siyang known as BEIHUN(he was so fair like drugs aka white powder), yongjin called BIG GUMS, izaac called ALICE THE SLUT, krissy called MAMASAN, ruishan known as LAONA, clarence called TIGER, loga called GAGA or sometimes LOGS, etc. affectionate it was. i am smiling as i'm typing this.



really, sec 3 and 4 life were the best years of my life. i'm glad that sheri, loga and izaac are still with me in nanyang now. alice the slut, let's go through this together hey? we'll brave through it. take my hand now, i wont let it go.

HAPPY 17TH BDAY MAMA! :)

you're like finally seventeen? haha. one year away from booze. you're all grown up now eh. hope you're having fun at AJ, just wanna let you know that I MISS YOU! :D alot, actually. yepp. please dont mind me putting up this cute picture of you hey? (haha!) you look absolutely adorable, btw. well, have a great year being 17, and rock on! :)

well, i had to run napha while having cramps. dammit. fell sick immediately after my run. boo. skipped math and went home. didnt go for trng! bah. heard they did tactical stuffe. and i'm lined up for left midfield for the SA match. hope all goes well.

and oliver, please type all at one go! haha. how many times you want me to remind you. LOL.

chem retest tmr, right after the match. holy cow. if we lose, i will be damn affected la. still want me to do test. pffftt. i dont get REDOX at all! who's gonna save me?

GP rocked today, cos we had a fire drill in between. HAHA! there was sorta a gp quiz going on halfway, when bells rang. no, not my wedding bells haha. anyhows, we disregarded the annoying sound and continued with our quiz. that was, until, ms sanah realised it was a fire drill. got our valuables out lazily and strolled to the field. like they always say, if it was a real fire, we'll be dead long ago. kinda true actually.

but then again, who would bother to mark attendance if there was a real fire? everyone'd be running for their lives la.

me: FIRE! FIRE! RUN!
ct rep: eh wait. i mark your attendance first.

YAY i got a workers party flag. haha. okay random, but who cares.

homework is piling up. tests are approaching. my brain is going fuzzy.
sometimes, i just wanna sit down and not do anything at all.

i feel like crying my heart out. toils and troubles. catfights and conflicts. and yet, i can do nothing about it. because we all are humans. and humans all have feelings. how can i ask him or her to hide their feelings? or not to feel that way? it is not the time now to say who's wrong or right, and it will never be.

i am tired.
but i will NOT give up.

one more match. yes, it signifies the end of the season. but the end of the team? i dont think so.

we're not fighting alone guys. we still have coach, we have our seniors, we have our friends, our classmates, our families, our school.

we're not alone.

PS. HAPPY 17TH BDAY LOGA :D

isnt the school beautiful at night?


it really is.


this bboy from nanyang is cool hey? could give siyang a run for his money. haha.



and stop taking pictures of ME! haha. (jinyu looks on, oblivious)

3 tests a day.
keeps my television at bay.
my eyebags have come to stay.
tests tests tests please go away.

yet another one or my marvelous poems. haha.

i want these!
(beckham's)


(funky nike 90)
have never seen anyone wearing the orange one before. will i be the first? :)

NY RUGGERS VS HWA CHONG RUGGERS.

nanyang, of course.